Open Wounds

Jess Down with the Sickness (Mental Health), Medical Maladies (Physical Health), The Pain that Doesn't Fade (Chronic Pain) Leave a Comment

My mind is running in circles, but my body is stuck in one place. I’m so manic I’m depressed. I didn’t even know that was possible. On December 20th I was in a car accident—just got my car back last week (new transmission, fuck). The other guy made an injury claim. I shouldn’t talk about this, but I can’t help …

Lithium Salt Flame buring

Lithium-Laced Fire

Jess Down with the Sickness (Mental Health), Health & Fitness, Massey Approach to Recovery, Medical Maladies (Physical Health), My Marriage, Organization, Personal Care 1 Comment

Since I started this blog, I have been diagnosed with a major illness (diabetes), begun to contact grad schools, fallen into a deep depression, finally settled a major lawsuit I have been battling for over two and a half years, researched and set up an appointment with a new psychiatrist, and had my first two evaluation sessions for Transcranial Magnetic …

Graphic that says "What is depression like? "

One Helluva Ride

Jess Change Your World, Down with the Sickness (Mental Health), Following My Dreams, I Make Poor Choices, Medical Maladies (Physical Health), My Marriage, The Bipolar Roamer (Travel) 1 Comment

Things are not good. It’s 2:00 AM. I’m drinking again, and listening to Johnny Cash—a dangerous combination. I’ve been fighting this depression for weeks, months, maybe years. I don’t remember the last time I was fully “happy.” I’ve been content, or happy for a short time, or satisfied, and I’m really good at faking it; but down-to-my-core-joyful for an extended …